Perhaps what I've written here has touched you. Perhaps not.

If you want to get to know God better, there are several possibilities:

• You can try to read in the Bible. This may be difficult, because many parts of it are difficult to understand, and some help may be useful; but there are also much in the Bible that is easy to understand. In general, the New Testament is easier to read than the Old Testament.
• You can try going to your local church. This is a somewhat dangerous suggestion as I know nothing about your local church. Churches can be very different; some are exciting, others are boring; in some you'll hear true and inspiring words about God, others will just fill you with nonsense. But do try it. Perhaps your local church is a good one. Otherwise have a look around.
• Find some believing Christians to talk with. If you don't know any, you're welcome to write to me.

Besides, I'd be happy to answer any questions you might have.